Three poems

I can't decide whether I like this one very much.

Imagine
being afloat
in the universe
there's thick,
velvety darkness
pressing in on all sides
pinpricked occasionally
by stars
throbbing, tiny
points of fire
the heat bathes your face
in light
and gravity traps you
pulls you in
tendrals of warmth
reach up and
sear your eyeballs
you turn away and
round splashes of white
fill the darkness
it's all you can see.


And written directly after that:

Sometimes I want to laugh
at how profound
it all must sound
when really,
all that caused it was
some angst and boredom.
What a pair.


Written last night:

Nervousness
That feeling when
your throat closes up
and you can't breathe
not from tears
from your lungs
actually not moving
because your heart's
frozen one second,
beating frantically
the next
like hummingbird wings
whirring away
in your chest.


Kelia

Two poems one song

So many

changing things

Each day I am

a new person

No one knows

who I am

I only know

I'm changing

Today I'm thoughtful

yesterday decisive

Today I'm still

as the world rushes

around me

swirls of color-

random noises-

patches of anger, tears,

ebb and flow over me

through me

Today I'm aloof

Tomorrow I'll feel

the pain

of a world constantly

leaving me behind

The next day I'll laugh

and forget it all

Each day I am

a new person

I can't decide if I like this next one very much... is it too short?

Friends-- what good are they?

To talk to, cry with, laugh with

to sprint through life with

A momentary understanding 

between two beings

afloat in the universe

seeking somewhere to rest.

I have to write a tune for this one, it feels like a song to me.

How do you know

what your life will

bring about--

will you cause joy

or pain

in your life?

Will you be neutral

standing frozen

as the world rushes by

afraid to cause pain

so ignoring the need?

How do you know

what kind of person

you'll be--

will you cause joy

or pain

each day?

Will those around you

want to hold you

will you love them

with all you have--

will you search for friendship

in vain?

It eludes you

the world's spinning

you stop fighting

for a moment

for a moment

there's a fragment

of peace in

the world.

How do you know

if you'll ever find answers

to these questions

that fill your brain?

Will they haunt you

till you forget them

and the reason you cared--

will you learn to let go

and just live?

Kelia

Trying to Get to Sleep

There's a weight on my chest
and my brain feels like mush
mush that's gray - and the weight
is like bricks
falling
onto dirt-
little clouds mushroom up
that's my thoughts dying down
as my brain takes a break,
hibernates.


Kelia